Hello?

I haven't been updating this blog. I have a lot of good reasons and even more bad ones. But it's not like I haven't been thinking about this blog. Thinking about appropriate topics and I even have a few drafts prepared.

Confession: When I'm stuck at work and have a few idle moments, I like to write and send myself emails. I write whatever is in my head and sometimes it frightens me what comes out in the page. Some of it would fit perfectly on the blog. Most of the time - not so much.

But dear Cat, you might think to yourself.  If your thinking and writing, why aren't you blogging? (yes, I'm imagining that people are actually reading this [don't judge]).

The answer? It's embarrassingly simple.

It's because I'm afraid that I will scare you away. I'm afraid that if I let the world peak into the twisted wonder that is my mind, I'll be rejected. Truly rejected.

I'm tired of living in fear.

Which is why I'm going to click on the 'Publish'-button now.

Being vs. trying

 

(Pop fiction is a source of many of my inspirational qoutes - don't judge)

Do or do not. There is no try.

These are words I try to live by. Is anybody else seeing the irony of this?

Anyway. I really do believe that the words we use, shape not just how we see the world, but how we interact in it as well.

If I constantly refer to myself as somebody who is trying to be a writer, then that is all I will ever be. I will never be a writer. I’ll only ever be dreaming about it and trying.

Following this train of thought, then I have to refer to myself as a writer, to actually be a writer. Theories of social construction supports this notion and it feels true. If you want to be a certain way, you have to own it.  Strangely enough, it’s not enough to just walk the walk, you have to also talk the talk. And sometimes, that is the hardest part.

So this blog is essentially about me, talking the talk.

My name is Cathy L. Jensen and I am a writer.

I’m not trying. I’m not even dreaming. I just am.

First post

*ahem*

Hi there, blogging community.

I've been hanging around the blogosphere for quite a while now, and I've decided it's time to jump into the deep end of the pool and start my own blog (here's to hoping that there won't be any sharks hiding in the waters...).

I am a young writer living in Copenhagen, Denmark.

Wauw. Just writing that sentence makes me all sorts of wobly. You see, I've read that all it takes to be a writer is to simply write stuff . And I do that - oh boy do I do that. But I never seem to finish a story. I never seem to get the characters just right. I never seem to actually be a writer. I only ever try.

I wanted to end on a more uplifting note, but it's late and my bed is calling to me. Next post will be more positive, I promise.

I don't know what else to write to properly introduce myself, but stick around and I'm sure you'll get to know me very well.